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just sticks in the mud
03:50
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i don't feel too good i feel weird i need to slow it down
i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry
i don't want to be in this society
it's too much it's too much it's too much
everything i say is too complicated
i make it complicated
i need to stop making it complicated
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3. |
sometimes
02:00
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put your cap on
don't forget to put your pants on
left myself at home
sometimes i'm not a girl
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4. |
the waiting room
03:36
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been sleeping in the bed in the guest room
but mostly on the couch in the living room
the one regularly called the waiting room
because i guess i'm waiting
for something
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5. |
jack's ghost dance
01:59
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"The mask was a thing on it's own, behind which Jack hid, liberated from shame and self-consciousness." -William Golding
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6. |
bird calls
05:52
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7. |
small hands
01:57
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"i’ve taken every part of myself
and crammed it into the niches
of strangers’ bodies
when they aren’t looking.
i want to believe this is human connection,
i want to believe our sex
could be a conversation
and we aren’t speaking a different language
for once.
it’s a terrifying cycle
of carving out moments of my flesh
and sliding them down your throat
with my tongue
while you’re preoccupied
with my organs.
the only reason i’ve ever swallowed
your unborn children
is because i needed to distract you
while you tasted the most
traumatized parts of myself.
sex is an emptying process,
but i don’t think you’re meant
to feel less whole.
that’s the difference between you and i:
i do this to resurrect the nothingness,
the purity of myself before the regions
you conquered existed to my small hands.
my small hands.
my hands are still small
against you."
-megan malone
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the one i romanticized
the butterflies i gave myself
and the emptiness
i carry it
it's not the accident
it's not that i'm a monster
i'm just scared
i'm building an imaginary world
i need to be grounded
I killed an ant and i felt so bad
i wanted to revive it
but i couldn't
i wonder where it would go
but that nobody knows
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9. |
indigestion
03:20
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my stomach hurts and the words don't come out right
what's the point?
but also what's the point in asking
if everything is about creating?
but it's like i secretly want to create shit
the food i put inside myself isn't too good for me
but neither is the feeling of constant anxiety
that i get when i think about the world
but again what's the point in choosing to feel horrible?
i'd rather live peacefully inside my head
make a beautiful world that i don't dread
a place filled with love and happiness
one where i could fit
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